Friday, December 08, 2006
today went work with him and my friend.
crap.felt awkward.and i don't know why i actually felt terrible inside.
this feeling of sadness,disappointment,rejection.
and i feel like im being used too.i dont like being the middleman.
and i bet he wouldn't even talk to me if he doesnt need my help.
when i talked to him,it's like he is kinda avoiding me.i just dont feel comfortable talking to him like i talk to normal people.
deep down i was cringing.

and i broke down just now before dinner.
what's wrong with me.
maybe rejection is just too hard to take.
maybe i have suppressed my feelings for too long.
why is it so hard for me to get over things.
i take longer time than average people i guess.

it's so hard to let someone into your life.
and i hate superficiality.
and this always happens when guys look out for pretty girls and want them to be their gfs.
i feel kinda aimless in life.
my beliefs,my values.can they withstand the test of time.

and i didn't got my small little wish.
that night.


PORTUGAL :]
xoxo

THE FAN
`bel
`17,going on 18
`ajc
`a simple & ordinary girl
`loves sports,laughing,instilling lame jokes into people's life,having hearty chats with friends
`values friends,family,genuinity
`hates being accused,being cheated/lied to

GOALS
`to undo the knots in my heart
`score well in As
`learn a new sport after As
`go overseas with friends
`earn big bucks after As
`be a volunteer at SPCA & to give comfort and solace to those in need
`fly to Florida one day and meet him

SCREAM

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